How do we continue to push ourselves forward beyond that which we have already accomplished? Meeting one goal just to see another waiting in the distance, and all the while feeling the pull of things left behind.
How do we create balance from an ever changing world? Setting our sights on the future, still . constantly feeling buried by the present and weighted by the past.
With all things in nature, there is change, natural shifts in seasons of life, so we must take account that we too must shift, must be able to adjust to changes, absorbing new and expelling the old, taking change in stride, balancing the already in motion with the things we have left behind.
There is no hope for standing stagnant, each body of energy must continue moving, must continue finding ways to improve, and as we do continue forward, we must surely fall backward. In any attempt to keep one's balance this is certainly the most natural maneuver; tilting forward to lean back again, and so on, trying to remain in a constant position.
With any struggle to find balance we must acknowledge first that there is an ever constant presence of failure. We are always lacking the full ability to satisfy our needs. I mean to say, we do satisfy, though only to come again into dissatisfaction, evolving always to revolve again. Failure being woven in and out of every part of life, and too the positive motion to adapt to it, to balance each - the past with the present with the future.
Acknowledging the push forward or the pull behind, finding quiet moments to weight the uneven parts in life, pulling back when the world continues pushing onward, forming our own ability to control completely, to say 'yes' more - to say 'no' enough.
Balance in life reaching into every avenue. There is not on part of our lives that can be ignored and can also sustain happily.
Too much of anything is a bad thing.
Even still knowing that, being taught it at the youngest age, it remains to be true that balance is the hardest fought battle to win, always shifting, always becoming a different creature with different needs attached, and always demanding attention.
We must embrace that we have failed to pay equal attention to all parts in life, we must acknowledge that change is necessary. Finding the holes, one by one or two by two, listing them, developing ways in which we can improve.
Be it clutter - take time to declutter. Be it self care - find time for self care, always finding time to make self a priority. Be it creativity - carve out time for creativity, we must always find an outlet, a way to free our minds.
Eliminate the parts that consume our lives making room for the other that's been neglected. Finding the teetering - tottering balance of somewhere, happily in between.
Feel balance with all things that may consume our lives.
Work through each part, identifying ways to improve, eliminating clutter in our minds, homes, workplaces, friendships, online searches, social media posts. Clutter that has been piling in with each bad decision, with each impulse purchase, with each idea that took us further away from that place we thought we'd be.
The past is relevant to the future just for such reasons, to remind us of where we once thought we'd be, of where we once were, of what reasons there were for moving on from it, and of what lessons, of the many lessons, were gained from experiencing it. Then taking the past and overlaying it onto the future, seeing how to improve, what things in life we have learned to avoid, and trying with every decision to continue forward down the right lane - avoiding continuing longer, further down the wrong lane.
Balance in anything means just that - take a little of this - for a little of that.
A little forward and a little back.
Always continuing inching ahead, but always tilting backward evening the swinging motion of our momentum.
Words and photos by Brianna Holman
I'm Brianna, a simple, honest lady, finding my way through my mid twenties, writing, reflecting, questioning, and improving; always seeking to move forward, to push myself outside of my comfortable norm. Now with my husband and our eight dogs we've chosen to consciously live with less making possible our ability to travel across country in our Fleetwood trailer. I am an admitted, continuous work in progress, in search of more questions to answer, ways to understand, and stories that enlighten. I seek understanding in every aspect of life, I seek empathetic understanding for everyone in life. I seek to reflect an honest life and inspire humble thoughts.